I have always had a curiosity about God and the Divine mystery of Life. I remember lying awake every night when I was around 8 wondering where God came from and what existed before God. During that phase, I remember being fascinated with my grandfather, who was muslim, respond to the ‘call to prayer’, watch him wash, get the prayer-mat out and do his prostrations to Allah. I remember at age 10, attending a Baptist church with our neighbours and my parents being very accommodating of my curiosity about the divine mystery. In my early teens, I remember my mother allowing the weekly visits of a local Jehovah’s Witness, as we sat on the balcony and talked about God and ‘The Kingdom’.
Up until my early 20s’, I explored different threads of Christianity. During my late 20s’ and early 30s’ I went through a period of being disillusioned with God and embarked on an exploration of different traditions and faiths; I had attended a series of Churches where I had always walked away feeling very flawed for being different, with pastors preaching from the pulpit that I was an abomination and a sinner. It took the reading of the wonderful book ‘How to Know God‘ by Deepak Chopra, for me to start a detox from the pain I carried around religion and embark on the healing of my relationship with the source of all, God. I got to understand, that ‘the finger pointing at the moon, is not the moon’. And that whatever path I followed or name that I used for God, it was simply a path or name – the finger, and not the moon.
During the course of our lives, a number of us embark on a journey towards and away from the faith or religion of our birth. Along the way, some of us discover our own path, which in some cases might be different from what we knew in our youth. Some remain on the path of their birth, making peace with the aspects of the traditions that do not embrace their sexuality. There are also some who decide not to follow any path, having been bruised and wounded along the way, by organized religion and its gatekeepers.
This month, we would love to hear your stories on Faith, Religion and/or Spirituality. All stories on this subject are welcome. Tell us about your journey. What does God mean to you? What is your path? – Do you have a path? Is there a distinction for you between Religion and Spirituality? How do you reconcile your faith or religion with your sexuality? What impact has your sexuality had on your faith, religion or spirituality (and vice versa)? Where are you at this point in your life, when it comes to faith, religion or spirituality?
So, what’s your story? To share it, send your email to firstname.lastname@example.org.